than looking at someone’s half-illuminated face on the pillow next to you and seeing them smiling at you, watching your half-illuminated face on the pillow next to them? Sharing new facts, shyly at first, then boldly? Snaking your arm around their waist and burying your face in their shoulder when you know they don’t want words in response to their facts? Testing the waters by sliding your foot across their calf? The small, confident elation when they respond by pulling you closer? Occasionally reminding each other of the time— "It’s 2:30…" — knowing that you’re not done yet?
Ask, and you shall receive. I don’t quite know him yet, but I’m so hopeful and so happy.
that you deserve exactly what you want, romantically. You deserve to be with someone who doesn’t treat kissing you, rubbing your back, sitting with you, and/or being with you like an onerous task that’s been assigned to them. You deserve to be with someone who is just as honest and upfront with you about their expectations and desires as you are with them about yours. You deserve to be with someone who will let you be as genuine, kind, and affectionate with them as you want to be— someone who won’t chastise you for not playing games.You deserve to be with someone who will smile at you over bagels and coffee, be thrilled to run into you in the street, and openly invite you to eat dinner with them. You deserve to be with someone who will lean into your kisses, hugs, and arm brushes. You deserve to be with someone who will show up exactly when they say they will. You deserve to be with someone who will be a friend and a comfort to you. You deserve to be with someone who will trust that you’re telling the whole truth all the time, rather than accuse you of spinning lies or pushing an agenda.
Boyfriend, girlfriend, romp-buddy, regular buddy, one-time thang, lifetime partner— don’t tolerate someone who uses your vulnerability as an ego boost.